College

So I think I'm finally experiencing what college is supposed to be like. Homework homework homework like all the time? On the weekdays I have absolutely no social life. I really can't complain, because I  guess I had 2 semesters that were easy and full of fun. So I guess its time to start focusing on the future spend every day and night working toward it. yay athletic training/mommying. heres to you.

Swim practice

we have 2 coaches, a boy and a girl. The guy is super attractively beautiful. and single. oh dear. why do I have to be in a cap and goggles when I see him?!

Thank goodness

Thank-goodness for late night talks, and roommates that say just the right things to make everything seem alright <3

Rollercoaster

talk about an emotional roller coaster!
today went great, enjoyed my classes, and my last class, Military Fitness was just a blast.
yes of course it was difficult but a cute guy in the class and I get along real well, we joke with each other and its just fun, and on the run we ran next to each other an talked. It was great, then I got home and just had the muchies and I hate it when I get the munchies. So I tried to do homework which didn't work at all. Thinking back, I honestly have no idea what I did from 4:30 to 7.... what a waste of time. Then I went to a swim team registration and was all excited for that. Then I came home and felt horrible! Something was wrong, there was no reason for me to be unhappy, but I was. I just didn't feel good emotionally. Then I went to country dancing where I totally danced with a guy I had a minnie crush on last semester, and it made my night. but by the time he left, I was feeling low again. On the way home I got thinking way too much. So I went on another run to clear my head and now I'm just so emotionally drained. Happiness, excitement, giddiness, hopelessness, confusion of the future, fear, pain. I think its time I call it a night.

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first day,  went great

I'm busy now. 17 credits.  blogging is going to be short and sweet. maybe thats a good thing? Just finished Chemistry and now on to Nutrition.

The drive up here was nice. Its so good to be back! I love it here.

I went to see Taylor Swift before I left, which was mind blowing. She was SO good live its ridiculous. All her dancers and her stage presence, she is an incredible performer. Loved that night.

The practice video the next morning for the King County sheriff department was fun too. I was trying to help my dad who wasn't responding, he was in late the late stages of Liver Caner, the paramedics arrive, I'm freaking out, help my dad! Then my mom gets there, he dies and we're supposed to be crying ( ya that didn't happen on my end, I just hid in my mothers shoulder). It was fun, it was pretty much all improv and I got payed for it! it was great.

So those were like 3 different blog posts all thrown into one short one. K I had my break, back to homework I go.

Oh also, I found some lipstick, buy one get one free at Bartells, well they were 1.09 for one....so I totally got bright pink and red lipstick for a buck! It was an excellent find. I'm quite addicted to them. wore the red today on my first day of school.

peace

I did that

yes I just brought up my photo booth so I could put my lipstick on in the Crossraods. and yes, I just went to ROTC instead of my military fitness class. what a day.

well i guess thats okay

so for this post, it needs the back story. Back in 10th grade my sisters and I were obsessed with being on Disney, or becoming child stars/ singers. So our mom and dad put us in acting/ modeling school down in seattle. It was fun and a lot of random things came from it, like i went to a competition down in vegas and thats where I got connections for my music and how I went to NY and then recorded in Nashville. But after that competition, we just decided to go our own way. There was an agency in town, just a local one, not anything that could make any of us famous, but there are always local jobs coming through. Well I auditioned a couple times in high school for different things, like small town commercials, or extras in low key movies being filmed hear etc. While I was at school, my sisters got a gig to be in a Wild Waves commercial, where they got big bucks. The best thing about this is that, its not like you need a lot of experience a lot of time you're just an extra, but you get paid money. 

Since I've been home, for any jobs that she gets emailed about, she'll submit my profile from the agency. Well randomly my mom came in my room this morning, and she's like "don't hate me" which gets me all nervous right? And then she says, I submitted your profile for a job, and you got it!!!! The shoot is tomorrow morning at 9 for like 2 hours. We were supposed to leave at 5 in the morn for school, but thats okay, we can leave at noon! She figured we could just leave later, since in 2 hours I will be making bankk. Its like this shoolt where the dad has been injured, and then theres a mom and a daughter. I'll be a daughter. Its an industrial training video. Its called "death & dying" haha happy right?

so I wont be leaving for rexburg early in the morning, but who cares right? I'm making money being in a film thing!

Spartan Strong

I would just like to give a shout out to the Spartan Race for changing my life this past July. When I did it, I fell absolutely in love, and could not stop thinking about it. It changed the way I work out, it changed my intensity and it changed my lifestyle! Their WOD's are beastly, and can't wait to get to school where I'll have the equipment to do them. I also joined their street team, where I advertise for them and I can get people 10 dollars off when they sign up. And I get some rewards too for having people sign up. Next June 30 in Utah, same place as the last race, the Beast is happening. Its the 13 mile one. I'm doing it, and I'm pumped.

LAST DAY

tomorrow is my last day at Abercrombie (cue hallelujah chorus). I am so glad to be done with that place. It is just too organized for me, like they're anal, and it drives me crazy! one time I walked in with my hair in a cute messy bun and one of the managers asked me to take it out, she wanted my hair down. well how do you think it's going to look after being in a messy bun?? or my pants wont be rolled correctly, its just crazy. The whole company is so perfectly put together and everything has to be perfect. and believe me, it pretty much is.

when I worked here in the winter, the longest shift I had was 5 1/2 hours. that was the longest shift anyone had, ever. They normally have tons of different models (thats what the people that work on the floor with people are called) and so its very part time. 3 maybe 4 days a week and and some 3 or 4 hours shifts with maybe a 5 1/2 thrown in there. But when we cam back, management was different and we were low on models. I started working 4 or 5 days a week and I was getting 6 1/2 hour shifts. I know 6 1/2 hours really isn't super long to work. The only thing that makes it so difficult is standing for that long in flip flops. by the end of my shifts, I'm limping and my ankles, knees, hips, and lower back are killing me. not good. thats why Abercrombie is a part time job in general.

but this week, we got a whole new floor set and we were low on models....so I got scheduled everyday. woohooo.... m,t,w,th,f, and s.... So I'm looking through my shifts right, seeing how long I work, seeing I have a couple long shifts, and then I saw saturday and I almost died.....

i work tomorrow from 9 to 6. what??????? 8 hours? thats ridiculous, I'm not going to be able to walk! I'm going to be so sick of customers and that playlist, that when I get off, I might just have to go home, put some cucumbers on my eyes and relax in a hot bath.

I'm not complaining about having to work in general for 8 hours, I've done 15 before, but I'm complaining about the fact that I will feel like an old lady tomorrow night, and be limping out of alder wood.

but hey, its my last day right? mine as well go out with a bang.

heart

So I just watched country strong, and its things like that, along with seeing things about Taylor swifts life, or watching concerts, or artists perform that really put a twist on my emotions. I can't watch things like that and 100% enjoy them anymore. Because all I want is that, so bad. Watching Country Strong, and watching Chyles (leighton Meester's character) perform onstage at the end, and the crowd is all cheering and she is just so happy and overjoyed that she almost starts to cry. ya, well I cried, just imagining that was me.

I want to move to Nashville, I want to get my career started. i want it to be a clear and easy path that will just get me there. But its not. I don't have any money, so do I want it bad enough to just go down there and live off nothing and work all day and play gigs all night? would I even get gigs? Am I even good? or do my friends just say so because they're my friends. do I even have a chance? do I have what it takes? how could I, julia farmer, ever, ever, ever become a country star, who would listen to my music? and why, would it be my plan? is it even Gods plan for me? if not, why on earth is it so etched into my heart. why do I have this insane connection to everything music, like its pulling at me, like its what I'm supposed to do. That I'm supposed to do this? if I leave it and let it go, I will have nothing but regrets. All I will think about is, what if? what if I had gone to nashville, what if I had tried super hard, what if I jumped for my dreams, instead of stepping for them? if I don't go for it, my heart will ache every time I hear about taylor swift and her success, it will hurt everytime pick up my guitar with just my sister listening to me sing. It will hurt everytime I think of, what if I had gone for it?

I am so lost. sounds to me like someone has some serious praying to do. and sounds to me, like I just need to move to nashville.

what if I dropped all my classes for fall? what if I was just spontaneous and let that happen because you know what, thats what I wanted to do and I did it. skrew what other people wanted for me. what if I could just do that? oh the joys of what if. if I could, I would be in nashville right now, and would have for the past year. but you know whats wrong with that statement? I could have been if I really wanted, I could have made it happen, if I really really really wanted, but I didn't. but i learned a lot this past year and what if its time now?

wow, isn't this just a lovely heart to heart we're having.

conclusion: I need to either forget about this dream, throw it away and not want it anymore, or go for it.

hangin with my top dudes + christina

had a short shift today of only 4 hours! Which left the whole evening open for shenanigans. J, David, Christina and our friend Ryan ended up going to Bel Square. ha, you would thing spending so much time at a mall for work would make me sick of 'em. ha, but this is bellevue square we're talking about, every store is BIGGER. Christina and I had a party in F21 aka dreamed of one day walking in and buying everything in the store (they have beautiful clothes right now, you see).

We then proceeded to stumble into the Mac store with the boys. Well the Iphones kept us busy for about 5 seconds and then Christina and I went to the macbook pros, and opened up photobooth.....chose the best "effect" and took maybe the most beautiful photo I had ever seen. We looked around, saw nobody watching, made the picture really big on the screen and walked over to the next one! We proceeded to 8 other computers, taking awesome pictures (oh you know my faces, but imagine them PLUS all the effects, it was beauty I say, pure beauty) if you were to walk into the middle of the store, and look around pretty much every computer had huge pictures of us, at that point, david and ryan had walked out pretending not to know us, and people were starting to look at the computers in confused laughter. So, before getting recognized we decided to dash. ha, it was quite amusing, actually super amusing, I couldn't stop laughing.

We then went to Nordstrom Rack, and Christina and I weren't looking for anything and we ended up and the dresses. We were coming across these awesome prom like dressed and really wanted to try them on! I think we ended up with 6 dresses each that were actually super beautiful! I had a lot of fun because for my prom dress, it was the only on I tried on, and then I bought it! So this was quite exciting. OH man there was this one shouldered blue one that was magnificent, and then this white one, oh baby, I have pictures I can show later. Lets just say, I really want to make it big with this whole singing thing so that I can where beautiful dresses to award shows and parties and things! Like super bad.

 GAHHHHH. I should just go to nashville on my off track. how else will it happen? Pshh I DON'T HAVE MONEY. I could nanny down there?  maybe I would find a person who needs an in home nanny! grrrrrrr, why does it have to be so difficult? THATS JUST WHAT I WANTTTTT. but rexburg can get me no whereeee.

wow. don't mind my crazy tangent about my dreams.

anywho, the rest of the night was just great. laughs. and being so weird. so so weird.

I have to work at 7 in the morns. so I best be going to bed.

p.s


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